Feeling normal again......

I honestly can’t remember what normal feels like. This past year has been super crazy & with my surgery, the meds and everything else, I don’t remember what it feels like to just be me. The shot should be wearing off by now, should mostly be out of my system but unfortunately I’ve been dealing with the awful side effects like crazy. MAJOR headaches, hot flashes and horrid night sweats. I have noticed that my mood has been better. I have a lot more patience with people than I have for the past 5 months or so & that makes me happy. I have been reading online about the Lupron shot & how your body should react when you’re not taking the shot any longer and it seems like from everything I read that I should be feeling normal by now but the side effects are worse than when I was on the shot. I’ve been dealing with them and just let them pass. I hate not being able to sleep through the night though. The night sweats are insane and constantly waking me up. I was exhausted a couple of weeks ago and the headaches were unbearable but this week has been better I think. Thank goodness. Each day is easier and each day I do feel a little better.

I called the doc for more information & pretty much all they could tell me was that once my cycle comes back then I will know the medicine is completely out of my system….So once again I wait but I’m just enjoying these last few weeks without a cycle, although I am kind of excited to have a cycle again because I should feel much better during that time. The surgery last year should have helped with the pain I was in so we shall see.

There are lots more people I know that are prego. Still kind of depressing but my time will come I hope. I have to have patience and that’s something I’ve been lacking for the past year it seems. For now I get all my lovin in on my friend’s babies and co-workers babies. They literally make my day when I get to cuddle them or play with them or make them laugh. It makes me feel better & that might sound weird but I just love all of the babies in my life & really do cherish the time I get to spend with any of them.

My hubby & I have a lot to look forward to this year. We have a lot of small weekend getaways planned, parties to plan, Sunday dinners with our great friends, our anniversary, our best friends wedding & enjoying the summertime as much as possible. I have no idea what this year will bring but I’m blessed to have the family & friends that we do and look forward to a year of happiness & only good luck.