Week #3

Hot flashes aren't my thing so I've discovered. Mood swings aren't either. This past week my hot flashes were insane. I felt like I had 400 a day. They come and go and I'm so thankful for that but they are a pain. I had a few night sweats last week also. I woke up sweating like crazy and had no blankets on and a t-shirt and p.j. shorts. I wasn't excited about those but I'm glad they only lasted a minute or so.....

Mood swings have been a pain. I was feeling down and depressed and now I'm feeling annoyed of everything and everyone. I think my hubby gets the worst of it because he's with me everyday. I feel bad but it's really hard to control your emotions when it's the medicine doing the talking. I try really hard to think before I speak but lately I've been flat out mean sometimes. Poor guy! I owe him big time for putting up with my cranky butt. I've also noticed I have the "I'm over it" attitude. I do nice things for people & feel like they take advantage of that. Maybe I'm just noticing these small things more than I usually do because I really enjoy making people happy. Lately I feel like I give and give and want everyone to be happy and know that they are cared about and then when it comes down to it nobody is there for me....

Dang mood swings anyway. I have to go back in for another shot on the 7th. I feel ok about it for now. I've been extremely lucky and haven't even needed the add back pill which helps with the hot flashes and things like that. Maybe I should take it but I hate medicine anyway so I will probably stay away from it for now. If I get unbearable with myself then I'll take it. I'm hoping this medicine is working though. I hope my body is enjoying the break. I had some light spotting last week and that was kind of a pain but nothing major. Next month my menstrual cycle should completely stop and then my body can really get the break it needs. I hope the next 6 months are worth it in the end....time will tell but if I'm doing this for nothing, just to be opened up again next year and have more surgery then I'm not going to be a happy camper. I'm sure of that!