Hot Flashes + Mood Swings = Being a woman sucks!

The hot flashes and mood swings have been more intense than ever. Is this a sign that the medication is working or is this a sign that I'm going through all of this for no reason? Only time will tell but I'm sick of waiting. I'm the most impatient person on the planet when it comes to my life and my body etc....If something is wrong I want to know how to fix it immediately.


My hot flashes come on about every 30 minutes. Let me rephrase this...they are not hot flashes, more like HOT SWEATS. My back is like a pool of water. Not fun. I think I MIGHT attempt to try to the "add-back" pill one more time. The last time I took it, I felt crappy all day. Maybe I'll try again this weekend and see what it does for me.


I will be on my third shot of Lupron next week. Time passes quickly in a way but my last shot won't be until December and it feels so far away. My mood has been about the same. I can feel myself getting angry in certain situations and I have to try my best to keep calm. Do I sound crazy yet? I feel crazy. Certain people irritate me more than others and I don't even want to be around them as often. This makes me sad because the holidays are approaching and I want to be my happy, easy going, social butterfly self. I often feel like people are being short with me because I'm being short with them or I've offended certain people with my emotions and they don't know how to tell me. I'm sorry to those that read this and that I have offended. Truth be told...I can't control what comes out of my mouth at the moment. I try and try and the more I try the more angry I get. This isn't who I am.

My husband reminds me everyday that this is all for a good cause. I'm still trying to come to terms with that but I think for the most part I've come to terms with the fact that THIS IS MY LIFE right now and I can either be angry and pissed off about it or I can suck it up and deal with it. Obviously when I write posts like this it sounds like I'm being a big cry baby, BUT I just want to remember this part of my life because it's sure changed my outlook on a lot of things....And I'd rather type on the computer than write in a journal.

Did I mention next week I will be in paradise with my best friend? Hawaii is calling my name and I'm ready for a much needed relaxing getaway in my most favorite spot. The hubs will be hunting because it is that time of year and I'm bummed it didn't work out so that he could come along but I can't deny the fact that I'm really excited to get away from LIFE for a bit and give my mind a break.