The holidays are over, the goodies have been eaten, the Christmas decor is ready to come down & so it begins....the waiting game. I sit & patiently wait for a plan for my body. I wait for my lovely cycle to get back to normal, I wait to see the doctor I chose for a consultation, I wait and wait to see what 2012 holds for me and my hubby. I think sometimes Jake secretly wishes he didn't have to go through all of this with me. I'm sure it's just as draining on him as it is on me. I was doing really well and then the holidays were over and I signed onto Facebook to see what everyone got for Christmas and wouldn't you know...another person I went to school with is PREGO. Just my luck. I get excited for those people and hate seeing those posts all at the same time. I get sad and then angry and really, it's not their fault at all if they can have babies or not.
Christmas was wonderful. So much going on that I didn't even have a chance to think about that void in my life. Now that the holidays are over it's all I can think about. I hate not knowing what this next year will bring. Will we get lucky? Will we have a long hard year of trying and trying and trying some more? Will we have to spend lots of money and end up with nothing? This is why I call it the waiting game. Our doctors appointment is Feb. 24th and that day seems like FOREVER away.....
I don't feel like blogging or doing anything for that matter, so I'll just wait some more.
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