I was pretty nervous but I had a few close people cheering me on so that made things a bit easier. My hubby took the morning off to be with me. He's such a sweetheart!
We got to the doctor's office with our "goods" and nobody was there. I was in sheer panic. Just my luck.
I found an open door to a lab and asked them to page the doctor.
The doctor soon after opened the door with a smiling face and asked, "Did you think I forgot about you?"
Uhhh yes just for a minute.
We waited in a small room for what seemed like forever. The doc came in and can I just say he's amazing. He remembered me. He was my second opinion doctor that DOESN'T take my insurance but is willing to do the IUI's for me and he remembered me and everything I've been through with other doctors. He remembered how severe the Endometriosis is and he was so understanding. The procedure took less than 5 minutes. Quick but not painless....
I was super sick the rest of the day. I'm not talking a little cramping here and there. I'm talking EXHAUSTED to the point that I couldn't keep my eyes open, cramps from hell and sick to my stomach. I was pretty bummed because I wasn't expecting to feel that way and from what I read online, it's not a normal feeling. Anyway, hubs went back to work and I laid around all day.
Then the waiting began.....
I was hopeful it worked and even felt different after the procedure so I was sure something awesome was happening but it didn't. I took 2 pregnancy tests and both were negative and then I started not to long after that & my lovely cycle came back with a vengeance....
So bummed but my hopes were still high.
We just did our second round of IUI yesterday and this time the doctor gave me Progesterone to try. I'm not a fan of reading information on the Internet. I feel like this is the worst place to get info but I just don't like reading about this kind of stuff online. So I asked the doctor to explain what Progesterone does and now I fully understand and am crossing my fingers it helps.
This is an emotional process but I feel like I'm in a better place as of lately for some reason.
It makes me laugh when the people in my life we consider close friends or relatives find out what we are doing and their words are, "Oh my gosh. I didn't know you were doing that. Let me know how it goes...."
I guess I find it funny because the last thing I'm going to do is call EVERYONE I know and give them the latest gossip on my life. If your involved in my struggle at all then you will know what's going on. If you don't take the time to ask then chances are you won't know. Simple as that. I don't give my personal information unless you want to know.
But I'm dealing with that whole situation better and truly finding out who's important to me. I'm not letting it bother me as much and I've learned that I can feel my way and they can feel their way. If they want to be involved at all then they know how to reach me. If they don't make attempts or make excuses then that's their loss. I would never ever ever ask anyone I'm close to to keep ME updated on their struggle. I would never expect to put that burden on them. If you need me just call me....Chances are that person won't ever call you during their struggle because they don't want to burden those close to them.
This is a crazy world we live in. I'm sad I've had to learn some life lessons the hard way but at the same time I'm grateful because I think I needed to learn who to trust and who to give my time to. I needed to learn to be better at saying NO to certain people and as hard as it is sometimes, a lot of good has come out of this situation I'm in.
So...here's to round #2 working. Crossing my fingers, eyes, toes and anything else that can be crossed.
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