Support Group

Some of my posts are me ranting and raving about un-supportive people in my life, people who I thought were friends blah, blah, blah....

This has been such a struggle for me because I feel like most of the people in my life only want me around when life is "normal" and I'm doing things for them, planning parties, get togethers, or date nights etc...

I hear about close friends making RUDE comments within our other groups of friends and it frustrates me that they are quick to judge but have NEVER even asked why I feel the way I do so I could explain.

Anyway, I needed to fix this because it's not healthy by all means for myself or my husband who gets to hear about it all of the time. I found a support group that seemed like just what I needed. I was excited to go and meet other women going through my same emotions and feelings as myself. Obviously these are emotions I've NEVER dealt with so cut me some slack people. I'm doing the best I can!

Off to the support group I went. I was pretty nervous. I'm a social butterfly but I don't like to talk about myself {unless I'm blogging lol*} so this scenario was a little intimidating for me. 

In the group there were about 10-13 women who surprisingly have some of the same health issues I have. These women have done their research that's for sure. They were throwing out medical terms that I didn't understand but they did give me some good information on some specialist doctors. I was grateful. These women have tried every possible thing in the book to have a child. Some have gone through IVF several times, some have decided to just give up on the idea of having children, some have taken every medication out there....It was an eye opener!

The stories began and I was intrigued. Some of these women won't even go home for the holidays because they can't stand the though of being around their nieces & nephews. This made me so sad to hear things like that. I can't imagine a life without my nieces and nephews, friends babies or co-workers kiddos. I love them all to pieces. I would never NOT want to see them. My heart would be broken if I didn't have them in my life. One girl had a miscarriage and she was so angry. My heart did break for her. I can't imagine those feelings and I pray that I never have to feel that way but just to listen to her story made me so sad that she has to go through those things and she feels so alone. The stories went on for about 2 hours and each story was different but the same in certain ways. I never spoke, I just listened. I finally gave a brief explanation of what I was going through at the end of the support group & my situation didn't really compare to these women. I guess I don't let this consume my life. It's on my brain everyday but I don't think about it while I'm working or spending time with family. I have bad days and sad days but I deal with them and move on.

What I did learn was that my feelings are SO NORMAL. I'm normal! Yay!!!

I'm in a much better place than these other women....and in a way that makes me really sad for them but for myself that makes me feel so much better and I've been happier and in a much better mood since this experience. I am so grateful I had the opportunity to meet these ladies. I wish I could make them all feel better about their situation but I can't. I don't think I will be attending the group again but I'm crossing my fingers that they are all in a better place the next time they meet.

For now-I'll keep hoping for a miracle and trying to keep my positive attitude on things.

I'm dealing with things my way & that's all I can do. I can't expect those people in my life to be around during my struggle. Some days it sucks....some days my feelings are hurt and I want to scream and yell at them BUT I can't. I don't have control over them so I can't expect them to be involved. I'm doing the best I can and that's all that matters.

The holidays are coming up. I'm so excited. Can't wait to decorate for Halloween this weekend. My very best friend moved back to Utah from Texas and I am over the moon with excitement. Good things are happening all around me and they are happening on their own time. Can't ask for much more right?